The God I Don't Understand

It's quite a true description. It's also the title of the book I'm reading.

I've got to accept that the thoughts of God are always higher than mine so are not something I can even attempt to fathom with human knowledge and understanding. I'm merely a creature, or a 'created being' in the image of God. I could ask why I had to go through what I went through, but I probably won't get an answer. God never intended for me to understand everything he does.

But I have got to know him more, just as Job said in the Bible, 'My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.' Illness does bring about loneliness, when you are the only person suffering, or put it this way, no one else suffers the same way you do, not someone you know anyway. The omniscient God is who I should seek help from, because he knows what I'm going through. And by going through difficult times with him I get to know him more. Every day I count the blessings God has given me - the opportunities to share with the others and even to take this time off. I'm beginning to find out God's purpose. And I'm less able to say whether the past year's experience has been 'good' or 'bad'. I only know that I'm thankful for what has happened, which shaped the person I am today. And I know tomorrow is in God's hand.